Today was a beautiful day.
I felt the breeze brush my skin, laying in the hammock with the ropes
firmly holding me up, the sun warming me all the way through. Reading, but still hearing a hummingbird’s
wings. Glancing up to see my favorite butterfly
gliding by on dark, bright orange wings.
The first spangle of the summer. It
makes me feel like summer is truly here.
I can’t seem to believe that I really have work that I HAVE to do. It feels like I am on vacation.
But isn’t that what a weekend is supposed to be? Most of the time it feels like two days to
catch up on all the things I fell behind on during the week: the laundry,
paperwork, researching, vacuuming, cooking, shopping, cleaning, just to get
ready to go through the next week. It is
all a great preparation for the next workweek to come. I feel like I am missing my life. Where has the past year gone, and why don’t I
remember it?
That’s not what it is supposed to be. We are supposed to feel like we are living a
life. That there is something other than
work that we are about. I always wanted
a job like I have now, something meaningful that would make a difference in
people’s lives. And I’m thankful for,
humbled by, and proud of my job. I help make
people’s lives better, or at least that’s what I try to do. But, what about my life? Am I meant not to have one because I am
giving it up for others? I don’t think
that is the way it’s supposed to be. It’s
not the way I want it to be.
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